You know it's strange how easy it is to resist food that isn't on my diet these days. At first it felt very hard, but I've made several new recipes for things that ARE on my diet that taste so good i don't even miss what i'm not having (cookies, cake, ice cream, candy, FAST FOOD, soda....that's right haven't had a soda in 2 weeks...go me!) I've also already lost 14 pounds, that makes it easy to resist because i know i only have 7 more pounds to go to meet the goal weight the dr set for me to be able to schedule breast reduction surgery.
I keep trying to picture what I'll look like, and how different my clothes will fit, not just from weight loss but from...well...boob loss. LOL. I was considering what size i want to go down to, and can you believe if i take off half of each breast i'll still be a DD? Ok maybe that's too much info for a public blog but it's the dang truth. I'm so tired of lugging around two watermelons on my chest all the time, i'm ready for some oranges! haha!
It really is amazing how a few pounds can make such a difference, my body feels so different to me already and i still have much further to go. I mean even though the dr's goal for breast reduction was 220 I would still rather be down to 190 or even 185 if possible, it won't happen over night but I'm gonna get there. I view the world completely differently now. I now see food as a way to sustain my health and existence....not to passify my comfort. I almost have a hard time watching people eating food that is so obviously unhealthy for their bodies and it makes me sad to think that they are poisoning themselves, i know, because i did that for many years. Food is a gift to strengthen our bodies but when we put things in our bodies that aren't good it wears our bodies down until they can hardly move from so many pains and discomforts and weight, I look forward to one day (in the next year hopefully) looking in the mirror and knowing that i was making the healthiest body possible for me, that this body would be able to do things I never could before. I want to be able to chase my kids around the park to dance more because it feels good and not get winded....and ultimately to live for many long healthy years watching my children grow and have families of their own someday. This is an amazing time for my husband and I both, a time when we have taken our health seriously before it is too late and are making a true change in our lives and the lives of our children as well, we're choosing life, we're choosing health. Thank you to everyone who is supporting me in so many ways through all of this!
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